Stuck
By: Stephanie MacDonald
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The words growing up from a dad who didn't care
Are cemented in my mind and refuse to disappear
Stuck in my head and it makes me feel dead
Do you know how many times I've sat here and bled
Say I'm worthless, dumb won't ever be anything
My spirit so broken it lives in a sling
My existence pointless, nothing you're proud of
But I am who I am no matter how hard you shove
I have this life but you make me not care
No matter how far I run, the pain is still there
Tore down and broken, angry, confused
A piece of me thinking you're partly amused
Wanting to heal but the wounds are so deep
Even in bitterness I'm ready to weep
I beg you to tell me why you did this to me
But how can one notice what they do not see
Keep saying I'm stupid for all that I lack
Feel stabbed in the front and not just the back
I want to break free from the shadows you made
I'll try to escape, pushing down on this blade
I didn't ask to be born yet I still ask for love
All I can do is hope there is a God up above.