LOTUS_SUPERNOVA

Contemplating

I would give anything
to put myself in your place
if I can't hold you close or
see your beautiful face
I miss your crooked little smile
and the smell of your hair
Why is this world so cruel and unfair
I'm so lonely
 
Your picture on the wall
the candle's burned out
and I'm broken
without you I can no longer stand
with my gun in my hand and
I am contemplating
yes, I am contemplating...
Do I end it all
 
I don't want to see another sunrise
The stars in the sky no longer shine
And I can't go on just saying,
pretending, I'm fine
All these plans we made together
we were supposed to have forever
What do I have to look forward to
I was meant to grow old with you
and I'm alone
 
That fateful day you were taken away
plays over and over in my mind
it happened so fast in the blink of an eye
with your blood on my hands
I didn't want to say goodbye
I called out but the only answer I got
was someone asking "Are you okay?"
You were the light of my path
and now I can't find my way
I'm so lost.
 
Your picture on the wall
the candle's burned out
and I'm broken
without you I can no longer stand
with my gun in my hand and
I am contemplating
yes, I am contemplating...
Do I end it all